Binge free days

I've had several binge free days in a row. Supposedly, this gets easier. So far, um, nope. Fitday says my average calories consumed over the last 7 days is 1,900 calories. Supposedly that's enough based on my basal metabolic rate (no exercise) for me to lose 1.2 pounds a week. We'll see. DH threw the scale away, although I have had the chance to sneak on other scales and I know I've lost 4 pounds. Four lousy pounds for what feels to be an enormous amount of work.

Every bit of food is a careful, thought out decision. I envy anyone who can just grab something and not think about it. Those behaviors got me to over 200 pounds. But no bingine since Monday night. The only other incident that I don't qualify as overeating was the night we discovered the boys had been stealing from us. But I shopped instead, and then DH and I ate out. Although I thought I chose wisely, Chipotle, like every other chain restaurant out there has way too many calories in everything they make.

Finally got Christmas money from Dad, and instead of the old "whew, now I'll be able to pay that bill" I'm actually going to spend a good chunk of it on myself. Guilt free, hopefully with DH.